Tomorrow I am going to fly many, many miles to go back home, somewhere I haven’t been to in 6 years. Plus, I am traveling with my baby. I will be seeing family members I haven’t seen in too long, and revisiting places I might not want to revisit and other places I do want to see again. It feels somewhat surreal for me because it happened suddenly and unexpectedly. This trip was gifted to me by my father. I feel apprehensive and excited at the same time. I have grown so much from the person I was when I lived “back home”, I have changed drastically, my beliefs are different, my way of thinking is different, my attitudes are different. I don’t know what I will find when I get there, when I see my family again, all those people that new the “other” me. With this mood and this weight in mind I did a spread, so as to get a feel of what to expect and how I should confront this journey. True to form, the cards don’t lie.
Page of Wands, 5 of Wands, Queen of Wands, 7 of Cups, 7 of Wands, 4 of Swords, The World. .
Overall, I need to retain my focus and my energies, never loosing sight of who I have become, who I am. As always, paying extra attention and care for my son as this is his first time traveling. I know I am shortening the depth of the spread but in essence, on the whole, what I need to remember is my “center”, to focus my energies and to also enjoy the trip, while remembering to not get trapped in nostalgia. My family and I will enjoy our brief time together and it will be good for all. –In remembrance of things past.