I’ve been feeling restless, a new month has begun, change is in the air and there is so much work to do, foundation to lay. This month I begin the preparation for our big move to another state way over on the west side, a huge change for us as a family. We are forging ahead and making our path, seeking out a better life, solid ground and quality. We are finally leaving this little island we have been living in for far too long. As a young family this is a sparkling new phase in our growth and journey, something that will draw us closer together and further solidify our bonds. In the midst of feeling all this I push back waves of fear, fear for my baby for us as a family, financial fears, you name it. Yet, while I hold back these fears I know, I feel it in my bones, that this is the right moment to take this leap of faith. I feel certain we undertake this with blessings and luck on our side. I don’t know quite how to explain it but I feel this is the right moment for this action.
Now further adding to this mix of emotions and energy, I am having trouble synchronizing with one of my graduate classes. I can’t seem to fall in synch, it’s not clicking. I am debating dropping the class but fearful of the guilt that comes with that, the feeling of failure. The decision is up to me, I just have to decide.
On another note, I received a deck I ordered secondhand, a Belgian edition, trimmed, Cosmic tarot deck. Some say it feels a bit dated and what not but honestly, it is wonderfully vibrant, vivid, clear and it has this old Hollywood feel that I am absolutely enamoured with. I have been reading with it these past couple of days and it is beautiful. Here are a couple pics of the deck, my favorite or striking cards, and my least favorite, The Sun.